I Don’t Make Resolutions…


Welcome to the time of year when people swear specifics on how they are going to change.

The problem is that the failure rate for resolutions is HIGH!!  Instead of making specifics, why not make them more general? Vow to be a better person.  Help people.  Simply doing that, I feel will go a long way to getting me to those specifics that I am looking for.  For me, it is to simply be a good person.  Give when and what I can, when I can.  And be grateful that I can do so.

Thank you 2013 for the crazy ride.

While I bid you adieu, I would like to ask you for a favor.  I know that you are close friends with 2014.  Heck, for all I know you may even be BFFs.  I don’t even know if you feel comfortable doing this, but here goes:

Can you please ask 2014 to be better?  Not for me, but for my friends and for the many, many people that are struggling, although, to be honest, I wouldn’t mind the extra help.

Friends that have had a rough year of first not being able to find a job, but then landing what could’ve been a great gig, only to have it turn out to be less than ideal, and people that have seen all that they have worked for disappear through hospital bills or tragedy.

It’s not that you were a bad year ’13, can I call you that?  I feel like you and I connected in a very moving way.  It’s just that there are a lot of good people out there that just need a break.  Take for instance, my BFFs Sarah and Tom.  To me they are amazing people.  Objectively speaking, they are well above average in creativity, intelligence, hard working, and thoughtfulness than many.

Sarah is motivating and motivated.  She is funny and contemplative.  Her big heart is only matched by her incredible thirst for knowledge.  She is a smart cookie that people only smell that she’s baking.  But some people think “Is that too much to be in a cookie? I like the simple ones best.”

Tom is brilliant.  He’s a funny people person that looks at things from a different angle.  He’s analytic and creative.  Much like Sarah, he too has too many ingredients for people to appreciate and I worry that all that incredible potential wouldn’t be utilized to it’s fullest.

And there lies the problem.  Can you ask 2014 to wave its magic wand over the world to get people to open their eyes that simple isn’t enough anymore.

Much like the nursery, it seems as though people want to get information from them only to leave and find a cheaper way to put that new found info to work.  Speaking of the nursery, can you please get people to show some sort of loyalty?  Other gardening companies refer their customer to come to us for problems they can’t solve but we can! Yet, for all the amazing knowledge that is in the minds of the nursery people, customers simply walk away with thank you, if we are lucky.  It is bothersome to watch this happen. To see what it does to the morale of great people.  It’s like watching people drain a lake of fish.  Keep going back and taking and soon there will be nothing to take.  I recommend if you buy your plant at the orange box, get your information from there too.  If they can’t help you, maybe they shouldn’t sell it.

It’s been heartbreaking to hear of the natural disasters that have taken their toll on the human race, so can you please ask for a little less of that too? I know we are causing global warming and it’s just a side effect of our own making, but I am certain more people will get involved with making more environmentally conscious choices in the new year.

I know I am asking for the impossible, but if you could just at least ask 2014 to be… easier, shall we say?  Not “better” but easier.

Thank you for every thing ’13! I will miss you, but remember you with such fondness. You have brought some amazing people into my life and that is the best part.  Be well, my friend!


5 Musicals, 1 Staged Reading, 1 Webisode, and 1 Play in 12 Months…

Crazy cast of Sugar
Crazy cast of Sugar

To say that 2013 has been a busy year is redundant.  I have spent countless hours in rehearsals and still more in performances.  But it was such a wonderful, exhausting and yet fleeting year.  There were so many high points and a few low points.  I don’t want to bore you with them as I have feel I have already shared them with you.  There’s nothing that bothers me more than repetitive blogging.  That’s part of the reason that I’ve been a little less productive on the site this year.

Crazy cast of Promises, Promises. (rehearsal)
Crazy cast of Promises, Promises. (rehearsal)

One thing that never changed throughout was my positive outlook.  Life is too short to spend too much time marching in the “Would’ve, Could’ve, Should’ve” parade.  I always say honor your feelings, so if you feel sad, do it.  Feel that sadness, but only stay in the parade for a block or two. Don’t let it drag you down the street! There were a times when I was kicking myself for getting in way over my head. I worried and stressed about it, but once I worked through it, I had to come up with a way to fix my predicament.  I don’t like to be a victim of my life.  I don’t see how it helps me.  So the only thing to do is to remain positive.  Except when it comes to a strep test.  THEN you wanna be full of negative.

Finale of 9 to 5 with some of the crazy cast.  Photo by B. Heninger
Finale of 9 to 5 with some of the crazy cast. Photo by B. Heninger

In my lows, I will admit that it reached points at the nursery where I didn’t want to care about the place.  But again, what good does that do?  It just creates a cycle of waking up, grabbing a shower, followed by 8 hours of clock watching to then head to the theatre.  At that point, I would have to take a moment to shake off my day’s indifference so that I can commit to my characters.  Then I thought of how much more fully involved I could make my characters if I took all the aspect of my life and tried to commit to them. How much more can I experience LIFE and use it in theatre?

The kooky cast of Zombie Prom.
The kooky cast of Zombie Prom.

I began offering ideas to the management at work, and many of them they loved.  It astonishes me that once that line of thinking became vocalized how many other ideas seemed to come out of nowhere. Sadly, it took most of the year to pass before I even had the inclination to do this. Still, it opens a new way of thinking and I cannot wait to see how I can utilize it for future characterizations.

In all honesty, I feel like I have to say that this has been a totally selfish year.  My goal, in addition to continuing to perform, is to help promote the arts and to celebrate the people who create it.  I have been so wrapped up in only my shows that I have failed in helping.  So like my new mindset for work, I would like to throw it out to the wonderful community that I am lucky to be a part of:

How can I help you? 

I am all ears.  I have some ideas in the planning stages so, maybe you are thinking the same thing I am.

Until next time, (which may even be next year!)



P.S. Have a safe and happy New Year!!