Can’t wait, but…

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Hello Gentle Reader!

As you know, I am stepping into a director role once again for 🎷 Smokey Joe’s Cafe (which I lovingly call SmoJo’s). I didn’t think that I would direct again after Jesus Christ Superstar. 😔 It wasn’t the complete vision that I had and made way too many compromises for it to end up the way that I wanted. It wasn’t my vision, but I loved every person that worked so hard on it.  My only wish is that I didn’t compromise what I wanted. 😉

I had mentioned that I was hesitant to direct to a good friend the other day (even though I have already accepted the position, yes, I know how it sounds) and she had some great advice and said “Don’t be! You learn from every situation, so whatever happened last time, learn from it and don’t let it happen again! You will make mistakes with every show…”

As I sat listening to the talented people 🎤 belt out tunes during the initial auditons, the voice of self doubt kept popping up and asking “are you sure you want to call XYZ back for XYZ role?” or “are you sure you can bring the best out of these people?” 👿 It was hard to shut it down. I am so glad that I have the team that I have. We laughed so much with each other and were all excited by all the people we had come out and sing us a song. The laughter does SO much to help squelch that voice. Something about sharing laughs with people helps me bond and connect them. Do you ever notice how laughing settles nerves and most uncomfortableness? It helps me so much. 👍

My Dear Reader, I was initially worried that we didn’t have people banging down the doors to audition but the number of people that did, had brought a lot of great stuff to the table. When I got home, after the second day of auditions, I KNEW I had a cast in there.

I slept so good that night! LOL. 💤

Oh, Gentle Reader!  Knowing that I have 9 roles that can be filled 3 or 4 times over by these auditionees puts my nerves and heart at ease, but that stupid worry voice, while muffled, is still there. Am I the right person to lead these 9 people to a packed house of spectators that will be blown away?

Yes.

I am. Thank you ❤︎, Jillian, for giving me a different way to look at this! So once the decisions are hashed out, I will happily pour as much of my heart and soul into this show that I am asking the performers to give to the audience.

And I can’t wait for you to see what’s in store!

So my Kind Reader, what do you do to get over that little voice that makes you doubt yourself? Or maybe you don’t have that issue… if you don’t, damn! I would love to be you.  Well, like you. 😉

Until next time, Dear Reader.  I look forward to talking about the callbacks… but that’s another post. Muahahahaha!!!💖💖

 

I Don’t Make Resolutions…

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Welcome to the time of year when people swear specifics on how they are going to change.

The problem is that the failure rate for resolutions is HIGH!!  Instead of making specifics, why not make them more general? Vow to be a better person.  Help people.  Simply doing that, I feel will go a long way to getting me to those specifics that I am looking for.  For me, it is to simply be a good person.  Give when and what I can, when I can.  And be grateful that I can do so.

Thank you 2013 for the crazy ride.

While I bid you adieu, I would like to ask you for a favor.  I know that you are close friends with 2014.  Heck, for all I know you may even be BFFs.  I don’t even know if you feel comfortable doing this, but here goes:

Can you please ask 2014 to be better?  Not for me, but for my friends and for the many, many people that are struggling, although, to be honest, I wouldn’t mind the extra help.

Friends that have had a rough year of first not being able to find a job, but then landing what could’ve been a great gig, only to have it turn out to be less than ideal, and people that have seen all that they have worked for disappear through hospital bills or tragedy.

It’s not that you were a bad year ’13, can I call you that?  I feel like you and I connected in a very moving way.  It’s just that there are a lot of good people out there that just need a break.  Take for instance, my BFFs Sarah and Tom.  To me they are amazing people.  Objectively speaking, they are well above average in creativity, intelligence, hard working, and thoughtfulness than many.

Sarah is motivating and motivated.  She is funny and contemplative.  Her big heart is only matched by her incredible thirst for knowledge.  She is a smart cookie that people only smell that she’s baking.  But some people think “Is that too much to be in a cookie? I like the simple ones best.”

Tom is brilliant.  He’s a funny people person that looks at things from a different angle.  He’s analytic and creative.  Much like Sarah, he too has too many ingredients for people to appreciate and I worry that all that incredible potential wouldn’t be utilized to it’s fullest.

And there lies the problem.  Can you ask 2014 to wave its magic wand over the world to get people to open their eyes that simple isn’t enough anymore.

Much like the nursery, it seems as though people want to get information from them only to leave and find a cheaper way to put that new found info to work.  Speaking of the nursery, can you please get people to show some sort of loyalty?  Other gardening companies refer their customer to come to us for problems they can’t solve but we can! Yet, for all the amazing knowledge that is in the minds of the nursery people, customers simply walk away with thank you, if we are lucky.  It is bothersome to watch this happen. To see what it does to the morale of great people.  It’s like watching people drain a lake of fish.  Keep going back and taking and soon there will be nothing to take.  I recommend if you buy your plant at the orange box, get your information from there too.  If they can’t help you, maybe they shouldn’t sell it.

It’s been heartbreaking to hear of the natural disasters that have taken their toll on the human race, so can you please ask for a little less of that too? I know we are causing global warming and it’s just a side effect of our own making, but I am certain more people will get involved with making more environmentally conscious choices in the new year.

I know I am asking for the impossible, but if you could just at least ask 2014 to be… easier, shall we say?  Not “better” but easier.

Thank you for every thing ’13! I will miss you, but remember you with such fondness. You have brought some amazing people into my life and that is the best part.  Be well, my friend!

j.

Loving the “Sugar” High, The Crash Is Gonna Hurt…

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In the past, I have always had a period of time in between shows.  I’ve never been this busy with shows. Ever.

I seem to have a pattern.  For approximately the two weeks after closing a show, I tend to fall into a slight depression from the sadness of not seeing  this make shift “family” we’ve created over the past few months.  We spend a lot of our time rehearsing and, as of late, getting together outside of theatre and hanging out.  I truly regret not spending this much time with the amazing and incredible cast of “Promises, Promises.”

Well, these last few months have been so tied together that I haven’t had any time to mourn the finale of not only “Promises” but also “Knickers.”  Once “Sugar” gets dissolved on Easter Sunday, I have several weeks before I begin working on “9-5” that I am dreading because it’s gonna hit me all at once.  The sadness of knowing that there are some people you may never get the chance to work with again.  That feeling of “it’s okay if you are totally bonkers, we like you anyway” gets pushed aside for the real world that frowns on anything other than the social norms.  Some of your inside jokes won’t get shared anymore.  And some of those amazing people won’t be there with hugs or smiles or laughs or all three when you’ve had a bad day. And speaking of bad days, there is no place for you to run away to for just a few hours to forget that day so you can think about it with a clearer head later on.

I’ve become friends with at least 60 new people over these last few months and I’ve had the chance to reconnect with at least 20 more.  In the age of social media, there is nothing better than meeting wonderful people  in person rather than on a website.  I find there is something so invaluable when it comes to that personal interaction because it lightly ties you emotionally together through memory.

There has been a beautiful Maya Angelou quote floating around on the old F B:

“I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”
― Maya Angelou

And I feel so blessed and grateful for meeting every single one of them.

I am honored that I get to call them Friends.

If you don’t hear from me after Easter for a while, now you know why…

Be well and do good, friends.