To say that 2013 has been a busy year is redundant. I have spent countless hours in rehearsals and still more in performances. But it was such a wonderful, exhausting and yet fleeting year. There were so many high points and a few low points. I don’t want to bore you with them as I have feel I have already shared them with you. There’s nothing that bothers me more than repetitive blogging. That’s part of the reason that I’ve been a little less productive on the site this year.
One thing that never changed throughout was my positive outlook. Life is too short to spend too much time marching in the “Would’ve, Could’ve, Should’ve” parade. I always say honor your feelings, so if you feel sad, do it. Feel that sadness, but only stay in the parade for a block or two. Don’t let it drag you down the street! There were a times when I was kicking myself for getting in way over my head. I worried and stressed about it, but once I worked through it, I had to come up with a way to fix my predicament. I don’t like to be a victim of my life. I don’t see how it helps me. So the only thing to do is to remain positive. Except when it comes to a strep test. THEN you wanna be full of negative.
In my lows, I will admit that it reached points at the nursery where I didn’t want to care about the place. But again, what good does that do? It just creates a cycle of waking up, grabbing a shower, followed by 8 hours of clock watching to then head to the theatre. At that point, I would have to take a moment to shake off my day’s indifference so that I can commit to my characters. Then I thought of how much more fully involved I could make my characters if I took all the aspect of my life and tried to commit to them. How much more can I experience LIFE and use it in theatre?
I began offering ideas to the management at work, and many of them they loved. It astonishes me that once that line of thinking became vocalized how many other ideas seemed to come out of nowhere. Sadly, it took most of the year to pass before I even had the inclination to do this. Still, it opens a new way of thinking and I cannot wait to see how I can utilize it for future characterizations.
In all honesty, I feel like I have to say that this has been a totally selfish year. My goal, in addition to continuing to perform, is to help promote the arts and to celebrate the people who create it. I have been so wrapped up in only my shows that I have failed in helping. So like my new mindset for work, I would like to throw it out to the wonderful community that I am lucky to be a part of:
How can I help you?
I am all ears. I have some ideas in the planning stages so, maybe you are thinking the same thing I am.
Until next time, (which may even be next year!)
jery
P.S. Have a safe and happy New Year!!
The Actorvist 