🎧🎶”I Get So Emotional…🎶

… Every time I think of you!!”
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Hello Gentle Reader!

Do you ever find yourself excited to work on a project but when the time comes to begin you find that you can’t bring yourself to start? 😱 That is the headspace I am in as the middle of the first month of the new year passes by. 📆

This particular project was one that seems pretty ambitious to me and I have only the slightest idea on where to begin this new challenge.😜 (I am keeping this vague because I have plans to post about the actual project next time.)

In truth Dear Reader, I got lost in the vastness of the extra time that I now have since I am currently not working on any projects. ⏰ My intention was to enroll into classes at the beginning of the year and then toward summer start working on ideas that I have in some notebooks of mine. I figured getting into a learning mindset first would bring some new creative ideas. 👍 I am so angry with myself because I spaced out on the enrollment deadline and sadly am in NO class. 👎Well, no acting class anyway.

I did begin lessons with a new vocal coach, 🎤 so all is not completely lost! I like this guy.  He is totally honest and keeps me working hard.  He doesn’t let mistakes slide and I really appreciate that. I have had coaches who just focus on praising, which is nice, but I find that I am not learning in that type of environment.  I know I can improve on something, but I was never told that I was doing anything wrong.  I had a hard time believing that and comprehending how that could be possible when I knew that I needed help with breath control, not sliding into notes and a slew of other things. It seemed that the only thing we were going to work on was how to sing the next song. That was cool and everything, but I needed my money to give me a bigger return than that. Now, it has been a number of years since then and the time has come to upgrade those skills and since I can articulate myself better I know what to ask for in a teacher.  At least this is one part of the plan that is working out.😄

Since I have so much free time, I figured that I would work on one of the projects that I wanted to take the year to get done. To keep me focused, I have currently told myself that  by the end of February, I will have a version of it complete.

So today, I sat down and got everything ready, but decided I needed to get my laundry done instead.  I guess the project just seems too daunting.  This task isn’t in my wheel house. There is so much to tackle  that I have no idea where I want to begin! So while the excitement is there, so too is the apprehension and fear that it won’t be what I thought I wanted as the outcome. And the curiosity that is everywhere because this will touch on so many topics.

I know in my gut that I need to begin but all of these feelings just give me pause and I know that I will sort through them but will I do it in enough time to complete this part of the project by the end of February? Cue the anxiety! Now time is a factor and it brings a whole new layer to put on top of this emotional cake.

But do you know what, Kind Reader? 💡Because of all these uncomfortable emotions, I know this is the right next step for me. In the end, that gives me enough calmness to take a deep breath and step up to the material I have set up already.  Oh, and coincidentally the laundry is almost done too. 😃

Do you panic when you step out of your comfort zone? How do you know the thing that takes you out of your zone is the right thing for you to do? Let me know in the comments below. Now, Gentle Reader, if you will excuse me, I am gonna have a slice of that cake!🍰

Until next time…

 

Do it for the children…

 

I don’t know where I would be if I didn’t have the Arts. I don’t know if I would have turned out as fabulous as I am without the power of creativity and the joy that I got from making the things that I imagined as a kid.  Yes, they were mostly decorative or used for toys, but the knowledge that came with this was life changing.  I could dream up things like stories.  I could make them come to life by being a character.  I could make someone smile when they were feeling down with one of those characters.  I could entertain other people and not just my family.

As I got a little older, I realized that I don’t think like most people because of how I used my imagination in the past.  I thought outside the box.  A habit that still helps me.

The Arts taught me how focus and to use imagination to solve problems in the “real” world, and not to just stand around and think up the same old conventional way that I was taught in school.

The Arts taught me that there was more inside of me than I ever believed.  But there was only one Problem…

I wish it taught all this to me while I was still a youngster.

This is why, when I got an invite from my buddy Paul telling me about this show and the kids involved in it, I knew we could make a difference.   So I am reaching out to you, you fabulous and wonderful bunch of people, to join me in “Pack The House” for Monroe Middle School.  This weekend, the aim for the show, Seussical Jr., is to encourage the young performers to continue their pursuit of the Arts.

Do me a favor, close your eyes. Think back to when you were in middle school.  Imagine how those children would feel performing on stage, some of them for the first time.  The hesitation, nerves and fear that are screaming in their bodies to not make a fool of themselves, because it would be uncool to the other kids.  Because when you are in school, it’s always about what the other kids think.   Now imagine that because you are there encouraging, laughing and cheering on those nervous youngsters how different the outcome could be.

Not only will the Arts benefit from a new generation of performers getting experience on stage, but the performers will benefit because of the Arts that have brought them to the stage.  And you get to be part of that magic.  Please, please join me at Monroe Middle School for Seussical Jr. and “Pack The House!!!”

There’s a Facebook invite going around that you can join: Facebook Event: Pack The House

Buy your tickets in advance here: Tickets for Seussical Jr. at Monroe Middle School

Click here for directions to Monroe Middle School at 1055 S. Monroe Street, San Jose, CA

There are 4 shows.  Thursday 3/8, Friday 3/9, Saturday 3/10 starting at 7PM and Saturday 3/10 staring at 1PM.

I am thinking I might go opening night and if that doesn’t pan out, closing night would be my other choice.

I will be posting on twitter and Facebook which day I get my tickets for.  Like I said, please come and be a part of this magical moment for these young performers.

I look forward to meeting you there!!

♩♩♫ What’s Love Got To Do, Got To Do With It? ♪♬♩♩

Only EVERYTHING!!!

If you aren’t doing something that you love, you need to step back and reassess some stuff.  Having celebrated yet another birthday at the beginning of the month, I contemplated my reality vs. my wishes and I know that something has to give somewhere or I am going to lose my ever-loving mind.

I have since done such a thing.  Hence my absence from Facebook and this site.  I have to admit that at first I was scared and the mere thought of looking at my life with a magnifying glass made me sweat like I was running for my life.  In some senses, I guess one could say that I was, er…am.  I’ve even gone so far as to reassemble my Dayrunner and actually have appointments written in it.  Not like the time I bought it and left it completely blank.  I think the most exciting part of buying it was that first time I got to put everything together.

I’ve refocused my energies back into the things that I love the most.  Of course, I’m sure you all know that it’s the Arts.  Dance classes are going really well.  The drive is kind of a pain because of the amount of gas it takes.  Don’t get me wrong, I love being in the car.  I think I am part dog when it comes to that respect.  It’s just so fun!  I still feel out of sync with some stuff because they are in the middle of learning routines. Having to jump in and learn on the fly has been challenging, but I am finding that the more that I figure out the steps and get them right the more excited I feel about trying to figure out the rest of the dance.  I appreciate the positive feedback that I am getting, but part of me sometimes feels like it’s only because I am one of the few guys in the studio.  I am giddy for the corrections that I know I need.

I’m trying to find the best course of action to take for a vocal coach and an acting studio to work with on a consistent basis.  Here’s the problem, they are always SO expensive!!  Finding a teacher that I can afford with some sort of steady training would be wonderful, but when the ends are just barely meeting, it’s kinda tough to find a way to stretch the funds.  It’s gonna take some creative budgeting, and I’ve never really done well with sticking to a budget, so I smell trouble.

But because I love this stuff, I’ve decided that it must be done.