I am experiencing the strangest, um, cycle…no. That isn’t the right word for it. Sadly, I don’t have the proper way to say it concisely. With that in mind…Lemme tell you a story.
So when I began working on this show, I was elated. I was joyous. Over the moon, even. During the six week rehearsal process, from staging to building the characters, from rehearsing in an echo-y room to finally getting to the theatre, from playing with my fellow actors to venting with them, I have seem to come to a point where I feel stagnant. And I am absolutely ashamed to say it.
I don’t know what it is about this particular play, but right after Opening, I’ve just been feeling like I am in the middle of the road. The preview shows were fun as was Opening Night. However, since then while I am energetic and enthusiastic off stage, I personally feel like what I am putting forth is stale.
But if I were truly in “the moment” how in the hell, could find myself in the situation I am in? I don’t believe that I have ever played the same scene twice in a row. I am sure that it’s for selfish reasons, because I think I’ve played the way I have to illicit different responses from my cast mates.
I actually felt bad when I walked out to thank the audience for seeing the show. I hung out in the far back of the group, trying to not be seen. I wish I didn’t even go out there, but Rosa herded everyone out into the lobby, so I got stuck in the group. Even meeting Luis Valdez, the father of Chicano Theatre and author of Zoot Suit, was super cool, but I didn’t feel worthy of his compliment. I ducked out of the lobby very shortly after that. I was in my regular clothes and in my car before the rest of the cast even came back to the dressing rooms.
What makes you feel like you’ve stalled in the middle of your momentum? How do you overcome this obstacle? More importantly, once you figure it out, how do you prevent it from happening all over again?
Let me know what you find that works for you.