I Just Thought Of Something That Scares Me A Little…

 

I  spent my 4th of July working on Jesus Christ Superstar and Pippin and a couple of sewing projects while Perry was at work.

I had to make sure to get my concepts on paper, check out when I can interview another person for the Assistant Director position, write out choreography, character, and costume ideas for JCS. I know that if I don’t do this now, I will probably forget what I was thinking.

I’ve been thinking about how I could best go about explaining my directorial debut.  Aside from simply blogging about it, I think I will try and record some of the rehearsals with either audio or video devices.  For now, I think I should get this first while it is in my head…

As I was compiling my notes for JCS, I began to think about the emails and Facebook messages I’ve gotten from people excited about the auditions and the show itself. I am so happy that people are excited for the show and for my first project in this capacity.  I also get just the tiniest bit nervous because that little voice in my smarts-holder starts asking questions.  The big one is “What if you can’t pull this off?”  or worse “what if the people don’t like working with you in this role?” Gah!!!  Shuddup, party-pisser! Its gonna be awesome, because I am Roarsome! I have a shirt to prove it.  So there! Thanks Sarah! Anyway, back on track…

Then I began to breakdown the characters and who sings what and I see that while there are many solos to be had, what happens if I get a TON of people to audition and I don’t have parts for them?  What’s really playing with my head is what if I have way more good people that are friends than I have parts?  How do I tell my friends that I can’t/didn’t cast them? Not only that, what will the backlash be?  I suppose I could just make it a REALLY large cast!  Kidding.  That would be absurd.

Seriously, though.  I very nearly had a panic attack while I was sitting at the table holding a glass of water, thinking of the next thing that I had to write down.

It amazes me how quickly and randomly the brain works.  I was just looking through the perusal script as I was listening to the soundtrack when BAM! my thoughts take a 90 degree turn at 341  mph and I see my glass start to shake in my hand.  For a split second things get a little unfocused because I go in that daydream kind of headspace where I am not really focusing on anything, and I just see all these people being angry with me.  So my breath starts to catch and then I hear one of those screaming firework things and it pulls me right out of it. So… thanks for scaring the shit out of me Mr. Neighbor Guy!

You see those eggs up there ⇡?  Imagine feeling like that…

ALL AT THE SAME TIME!!!  

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But let’s think about things I shan’t be stressing over…

I think I have the majority of my staff!! Woot woot!!

So as of this moment, this is the unconfirmed dream team that will help make JCS frakkin’ amazing!

Music Director: Jean Narunsky

Vocal Director: Judy Steinle

Costumes: Sue Howell (I was just kidding with her saying that she had to build all the costumes from scratch.  She didn’t even bat an eye and she said “Oh, I can do that!”)

Stage Manager: Emily Pye!!  (She is all kinds of amazing!)

Set Design: Stephen Wathen

Light Design: Mike Munoz (There will be no smoke machines.)

Still figuring out Sound, AD, and Tech Director, but I shall keep you posted on that.

The next thing that I need to do is to find out what the budgeting looks like for this show.  I think I have some ideas on how to save some dough without compromising everything that I want. So that calls for a meeting with my Producer ladies, Nancy Kwong and Liz Dale.

Well, now that I am super excited again, I think I am going to go back to work on my “stuffs.”

I think I wanna knit now and listen to a podcast.

It’ll be a nice way to wind down!

If you have any advice on how to let a friend down easy so that I am prepared for auditions, I would LOVE to hear it. All suggestions will be helpful.  Even the totally looney ones!  Leave a comment below with your ideas. Cheers!