If you aren’t doing something that you love, you need to step back and reassess some stuff. Having celebrated yet another birthday at the beginning of the month, I contemplated my reality vs. my wishes and I know that something has to give somewhere or I am going to lose my ever-loving mind.
I have since done such a thing. Hence my absence from Facebook and this site. I have to admit that at first I was scared and the mere thought of looking at my life with a magnifying glass made me sweat like I was running for my life. In some senses, I guess one could say that I was, er…am. I’ve even gone so far as to reassemble my Dayrunner and actually have appointments written in it. Not like the time I bought it and left it completely blank. I think the most exciting part of buying it was that first time I got to put everything together.
I’ve refocused my energies back into the things that I love the most. Of course, I’m sure you all know that it’s the Arts. Dance classes are going really well. The drive is kind of a pain because of the amount of gas it takes. Don’t get me wrong, I love being in the car. I think I am part dog when it comes to that respect. It’s just so fun! I still feel out of sync with some stuff because they are in the middle of learning routines. Having to jump in and learn on the fly has been challenging, but I am finding that the more that I figure out the steps and get them right the more excited I feel about trying to figure out the rest of the dance. I appreciate the positive feedback that I am getting, but part of me sometimes feels like it’s only because I am one of the few guys in the studio. I am giddy for the corrections that I know I need.
I’m trying to find the best course of action to take for a vocal coach and an acting studio to work with on a consistent basis. Here’s the problem, they are always SO expensive!! Finding a teacher that I can afford with some sort of steady training would be wonderful, but when the ends are just barely meeting, it’s kinda tough to find a way to stretch the funds. It’s gonna take some creative budgeting, and I’ve never really done well with sticking to a budget, so I smell trouble.
But because I love this stuff, I’ve decided that it must be done.